without explanation

idling

myself

my dreams

crafting explanations

justifications why

I’m allowed to be

me

wasting energy

trying to convince you

turning my back

on me

afraid

i’ll end up alone

when my muchness

is revealed

you won’t follow

but this is mine

to understand

to own

every part of me

to hold her tight

love her close

to let her

be

I will not withhold

I am free

to live

exist

without explanation

follow

my bliss